Self-love

 MARCH 2023

Life is like a constant flowing river, always moving, always changing. There are flashes of happiness and bursts of pain, and nothing lasts forever is at the tip of our tongue every time it all falls apart. There will be somedays that will be so hard on your soul. Days where you hate yourself for the darkness that you have been harboring to swallow you.

Loving myself has never been easy, I struggle with it till this day and I don't know why. In a world where we constantly talk about  'self-love' , 'self-worth' and how to be the best version of yourself---- I fail to grasp what the best version of me looks like. Is she kind and soft-hearted, or is she loud and unapologetic? Does she take herself on walks and dates alone or does she rely on her loved
ones for companionship and happiness? Because I've channeled through various hues of pain, pleasure and healing and have found a different 'me' each time. 

And in a world where we keep telling ourselves that we're worthy, I find myself wondering which one of those me's is worthy. The one who dived into pain and curled up in a ball in a corner of her room, or the one who woke up in the morning and gave herself another chance. The one who let go of people who broke her or the one who loved, without a care for the consequences that would ensue. Because loving yourself shouldn't be hard. It shouldn't be such a challenge.

But maybe I'm Overthinking. Maybe everyone knows just who they are and has figured it all out, or maybe, just maybe--- others have realized that loving yourself  doesn't mean knowing yourself entirely. Instead, it means  giving yourself room to grow. Loving yourself means accepting who you are, as you are today, what you have been through, without worrying about who you might become.